ooooh two blogs in 1 day lol. but yeah i've been thinking about this for a while and I just need to vent.
I don't understand why people can't just be upfront and honest with their feelings. It is def much easier that way... you dont have to put this mask on, trying to make every1 think that your life is so great and perfect. trust me, i'm sure no one even cares that much. it just seems like its the ppl tht are always like omg everything is perfect, wow my life couldnt be better... are the ones that are hurting the most inside. I always like to be real with everything. If I fall down the stairs in front of everyoneee in school, i'm not going to get up and be like man I barely tripped it didnt even hurt what are you talking about when my leg is probably broken lol!? I'm going to most likely yell AHHHH, that hurtttt.. and I might even have a tear or two lol. Still, because I know that broken bone is going to heal soon, I will get over it and move on. If I tried to cover up that pain its not just going to vanish so whats the point?
Another thought I've had that relates to that is how people are so evil and cruel to others and then come to find out something is really really going wrong in their life and they just arent happy with themselves. Its like terribly sad that people get off on that temporary high of making someone else feel like crap. Don't they understand that bullying that person or hurting their feelings might get their mind off their own sucky lives for a little while but thats just temporary. When your done you still have problems, so tell me what are you really getting out of causing someone else problems? I've been hurt so many times... betrayed even/stabbed in the back. Though I can honestly say that in my heart I forgive every single person that has hurt me.. even those who I know arent sorry. I'm gonna bring some Jesus on yall... whenever some one hurts me this always pops in my head. "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do. (Luke 23:34)" I mean these people honestly have no idea what they are doing and how much bad karma they are bringing upon themselves. So i'm not going to waste my time trying to "argue with them on facebook... " lol or seek revenge. I have way more important things to worry about. My future is my main focus and I have no time to waste. If others dont care about theirs thats on them.